OK, I had a mini breakdown moment of again begging the Lord this morning. I was dusting the girls' room and sissy was laying in her crib. When I moved to her side of the room she jumped up and reached for me. My plan was to leave her in bed, but I couldn't resist! I picked her up and hugged her tight. Tears immediately came to my eyes as I squeezed her and begged the Lord yet again to make her mine.
We ask you to pray again for court coming up this Monday. Alot of stuff could happen and we could lose her again. We have also applied for what is called "De Facto Parenting" and the Judge will rule on that also. (That is kind of confusing but you can google it. It just gives us a few more rights, because right now we have none.)
My Pastor, Scott shared this verse a couple of weeks ago and it has really helped me in my thinking. "Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand." It doesn't matter what anybody tries to do, what we all think...Sissy where be where she is supposed to.
As you know, this year the Lord is getting me where it hurts, my family and kids. I am learning to hold them with loose fingers as God is the one they ultimately belong to. I think, at the end of this year will Ivy still be any only child? Will we have 2 kids or 3? Only God knows, but I know that He is faithful and good and that will not change even if I didn't have any. I'm working hard at living what I say that I believe. Please hold us in your prayers this coming Monday and I will post an update.