OK, I had a mini breakdown moment of again begging the Lord this morning. I was dusting the girls' room and sissy was laying in her crib. When I moved to her side of the room she jumped up and reached for me. My plan was to leave her in bed, but I couldn't resist! I picked her up and hugged her tight. Tears immediately came to my eyes as I squeezed her and begged the Lord yet again to make her mine.
We ask you to pray again for court coming up this Monday. Alot of stuff could happen and we could lose her again. We have also applied for what is called "De Facto Parenting" and the Judge will rule on that also. (That is kind of confusing but you can google it. It just gives us a few more rights, because right now we have none.)
My Pastor, Scott shared this verse a couple of weeks ago and it has really helped me in my thinking. "Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand." It doesn't matter what anybody tries to do, what we all think...Sissy where be where she is supposed to.
As you know, this year the Lord is getting me where it hurts, my family and kids. I am learning to hold them with loose fingers as God is the one they ultimately belong to. I think, at the end of this year will Ivy still be any only child? Will we have 2 kids or 3? Only God knows, but I know that He is faithful and good and that will not change even if I didn't have any. I'm working hard at living what I say that I believe. Please hold us in your prayers this coming Monday and I will post an update.
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I am praying for you guys! I love you!
I'm praying Kel as well as everyone here at the college. Love you.
You guys are in our prayers too for this Monday!
Sweet friend....Praying for you - that date is embedded in my brain - has been...I wanted to tell you too that I have friends that hop on to your blog from mine and they tell me that you have encouraged them in an amazing way - they have shed tears and told me to thank you for your trust in the Lord during this time. We all love you and are praying for you - what an amazing thing that Sissy has people all over praying for her sweet sweet life. Keep a quiet heart. love, tracy
You are so loved! I will continue to pray for your family. I miss you more than you know...
totally praying that both kids will be yours! :) God is so good to us.
praying for you...
Hey K- Sam here.
I follow your story and only comment occasionally, but i SO appreciate your transparency and effort to please the LORD.
This comment is kind of a book recommendation (as well as a blog recommendation?). i follow a blog called OwlHaven (she's a mom of 10, i think, and many of them are adopted). She & her husband are Christians and she's a hub for adoption related stuff (domestic & international, I believe).
ANYway, she recently recommended a book. I haven't read it, but I read both your post and her recommendation within 2 minutes of each other and thought... 'Hmmmm'... :) it's written by a husband and a wife about the highs & lows of adopting... it sounded like an encouraging, if not relate-able, story for you right now... ANYway, no pressure, just thought it might be a cool connection :)
Much grace & peace...especially on Monday!
http://www.owlhaven.net/2009/02/25/book-giveaway-from-ashes-to-africa/
Kelli, over this past year, I have been so blessed by your friendship and your unwavering commitment to trust the Lord throughout this whole process. You truly are an example to everyone who knows about this whole situation. I admire you for your desire to be pleasing to the Lord and for your faith in His sovereignty. I will be praying!! Love you guys!
Looking forward to seeing you all later today. The church family has been busy praying that The Lord would be gracious unto you and allow Sissy to remain in your care. But regardless of the outcome, she has been nourished physically and spiritually in your home and God wastes nothing. Praising His faithfulness through you...
Love, Tim & Diane
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